I am very well aware of the fact that I am a very different person, I am not like anyone else I know.  I have thought at times, “I wonder if there is something wrong with me?”, “Maybe I am depressed or perhaps debilitated in some area, maybe I have a chemical imbalance or perhaps some emotional problem?”  It’s only been in recent history that humans have taken notice of problems such as depression, attention deficit disorder, bi-polar, chemical imbalances and the like.  I think it can be shown that such disorders or problems of this kind have been ignored for most of human history.  As for me, I purposed in my mind and heart many years ago, that I simply refuse to consider or look into these things, I am who I am and having a disorder to blame my problems on was out of the question, I just decided that God’s grace is sufficient for me, period, end of story!  For me there could be no upside to victim status, I simply refused to accept any such thing to this date.

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